Neville was here - again.

I don't understand why people would do this. They say - what you sow so shall you reap, maybe that is what it is. But I am sorry. I was sorry. But it still haunts me. It still haunts them, I guess.

I have always had to work for what I have wanted. Just wish it was a little easier and it hurt a whole lot less.

Somethings I don't understand. Some people I don't understand. It hurts knowing what I know. I feel helpless. I feel disturbed. I feel uneasy. I feel dead.